My pants-losing antics
are getting worse.
In two-ways, I
suppose.
Nevermind, I promised
James I'd stop talking to strangers about our sex life.
So I keep losing my
pants.
After I got back from
the hospital, I went on a shopping spree - sort of a "new me, less
money" philosophy. Among many purchases that I don't care if my husband finds
out about because we are financially independent of each other, I bought the
most fabulous pair of pants. Seriously, it's like they were sculpted
specifically for my ass. I love those pants.
The first time I wore
them, James was so turned on he
Nevermind.
The point is: the
pants were awesome and I keep losing them. First they were under the bed, then
they were in Jason's laundry, then they were in the dishwasher - I don't know,
I swear - and now it's been a week and I can't find them. I'm deeply troubled
by the amount of times I've misplaced this simple garment.
But it's not just the
perfect ass-pants. I feel like I've been so scatter brained lately. I misplace
simple work documents, I left someone on hold for half an hour, I drove all the
way to work with Jason in the backseat - why he asked for a ride to school that
early in the morning, I still don't know for sure. I feel like I can't focus
because I'm thinking about all the other things I need to do. And with the
added stress of Daniel breathing down my neck, it's getting a bit ridiculous
how much I'm expected to juggle.
I haven't killed in
many months now, and while the pills are keeping me in check, it’s still a
daily struggle not to give in to my natural urges. James is helping, the kids
are keeping me distracted with their school and life drama (there’s this bitch,
Kelly, in Sandra’s class…I’ll talk about it later) but it’s not enough.
I need to kill. But
with Daniel around I can’t. All he needs is one slipup and I’m done. I can’t
risk my family but can I compromise my sanity again?
Daniel needs to back
off. He’s only going to do that if I send a message that makes him back off.
I think it’s time to
put James’s plan into action.
Wish me luck.
As always, dear
readers,
Stay Safe
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