I swear, I don’t know what I’m going to do
with Jason. I’ve been good about leaving him to his own devices now that summer
vacation has started and he’s barely left his room, but I walked past it on
Sunday and it was an absolute disaster zone. I don’t remember it being this
unruly during the school year (or even last week). How does that even happen?
And there’s a smell. I don’t know what’s causing
it but the smell is just everywhere. But it never leaves, like there’s a force
field around the door. It’s absolutely bizarre. I told him to clean his room
but he just shrugged and looked back to the laptop on his bed.
This is what happens when I pay more
attention to one child over the other. The other one goes insane.
Well more
insane.
I cannot understand how that happened.
Moving on.
Sandra has been picking up this murder
business very quickly, I’m so proud. I even let her get in a few blows with
this last one. Get some real blood on her shoes. Shoes are the easiest ones to
deal with. One sole in one dumpster, one in the other a town away. She’s really
enjoying it, too. I love seeing the way her eyes light up, it’s just precious.
She’s told me how anxious she is but I keep
telling her to wait. A few more weeks and I think she’ll be good; if she can
hold out that long.
It’s just so nice to see the way her whole
demeanor has changed. She’s lighter, more open. She’s thinking of changing
schools so she can take classes closer to home. I completely glossed over the
fact that my baby has GRADUATED from high school.
Holy Shit.
I feel so old. But now it’s starting to
feel like I have a companion in my daughter rather than just another person
living in my house. She comes to visit me at work – she’s even started helping
out with some filing and organizing. I might start paying her just so we can
spend the day together and kill a couple people on the way home. Turn it into a
learning experience.
I’ll talk to her and see what she says,
first. I need to keep the lines of communication open if this relationship is
going to work.
And I so want it to work.
As always, dear readers,
Stay Safe
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