You’ll be
happy to know I opted to confront my husband verbally about his emotional
avoidance. At first. It quickly escalated into a physical altercation. We had a
tussle in the bedroom on Thursday night and not in a fun way. I told you: if he
won’t talk to me, he’ll need to be punished. Really, it was just a lot of
shouting and shoving each other around until I pinned him on the floor and he
calmed down.
We talked
it out, properly. Whenever he tried to deflect I would just kick him in the
shins and he did the same for me – like we were children developing
communication skills. But it worked; we got it all out in the open and left
nothing to misinterpretation. I won’t go into everything we talked about. There
are probably some things I should keep private in this family.
I had to
give Jason a proper explanation the next morning – I could see a few
uncomfortable looks at the breakfast table. I promised I would be completely
open and honest if he asked me but I wouldn’t share everything with him. He is
my son, not a sounding board; that’s what I have my dear readers for.
Jason’s
doing all right, by the way. Has a steady girlfriend, job he’s not in love with
but goes to five days a week. By all accounts he’s happy and healthy. I’m more
than okay with the fact that he’s thriving without my guidance; but I sometimes
feel we don’t have anything to talk about. We don’t talk about my work, James’
work, or family – I stopped asking about Jason’s work when I kept getting the
same nonchalant response. These days I barely tell him when he might be in
danger because of my actions.
I wanted to
share this situation with him as a bridge to open communication. Reaching out
to Jason on occasion won’t kill us. It may do us both some good.
And that’s
where we are this week: a little tired and bruised but lighter.
I’m glad I talked
to my husband first. Who knew communication was so essential to a marriage.
That’s a forced joke, I know. Sometimes I don’t know how to end an update. I
just keep writing until it feels right even if I have nothing left to say. Like
now. I don’t know what else to say but I haven’t quite found the urge to end
this update.
Just do it.
As always,
dear readers,
Stay Safe
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