There's still no sign of Casey. It's been three weeks and I feel like I'm no closer to finding her than I was that first night. Door ajar, blood on the handle, living in shambles.
Nothing was missing. We had to make a thorough catalogue for the insurance company and let the police know if anything was out of place. Nothing. That's how they ruled out a home invasion.
The absence of a burglar's body was what tipped me off to that.
That girl is going to be the greatest killer in a generation. I wasn't even killing at her age and yet she's murdered a dozen people - that I know about. I still don't know everything she went through before she came to us. That time between foster homes, that time in juvenile correction, that time she had escaped juvie before James found her.
She was born to take life. And now someone has taken her. I don't mean to repeat myself so much. I just feel so helpless.
You know I hate feeling helpless.
I can barely eat or sleep or kill. The storage unit has been empty for a month which feels like a fucking waste of money. As soon as she's home safe I'll open it back up again but for now, it lies dormant.
I go to work, I come home, I look for my daughter. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.
I found a gas station near the edge of the community that has a working camera. The angle is shit and the attendant smelt like cigarettes and rotten fruit but I got the footage.
And for once, I didn't have to come up with an excuse. Normally, I would lie about a missing child to steal incriminating footage of my own crimes. Now I'm praying whoever took her wasn't smart enough to think of it.
I gave it to my sister to comb through but that was Saturday and despite my constant calls and texts, there's been nothing new.
I feel like I'm losing my mind, just waiting for news.
I can't wait to get my hands on this son of a bitch. I am going to eviscerate them. I am going to tear them apart limb by limb. I am going to eat their heart.
I am also very, very tired.
I don't know what I'd do without James.
Some anniversary we had this year.
As always, dear readers,
Stay Safe
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